Thoughts from Mom!

I really don't now where to beging with this post. This is the emotions of a mother the last few days. I don't know about you all, but it is really scary when you think about your oldest child who is about to graduate from high school and beging to embark on new adventures of life. I still think of him as my baby boy of 8lbs 11oz who needed me, but it is not that way anymore. He wants to do is own thing and this is a hard pill to swallow, when as a control freak I want to take care of everything for him. I know he can do it on his own, but I still want him to need me they it used to be. I am really excited about the new adventures he is getting ready to walk. I just hope as parents have instilled the Godly values that he will need to walk this path. Jacob just remember that God is right there beside you now and forever. I am really excited about you starting college and speading your wings. I now there will be some ups and downs through this journey. Just remember who loves you and is there for you to cry on their shoulder. You have grown up to be a Godly Handsome young man. You have just a few months & you are college bound!!!!
When I think of Emily I think of fun, creative, and a heart of gold. There are some days where Emily is my all day baby sitter for Hannah. I just love watching how the bond between these two is growing. Now don't get me wrong they can have sister to sister fights. That is something I never had. I was raised around all boys, so when these two start fussing at each other it is pretty funny. Emily usually wins. I just love watching Emily blossom into a beautiful young lady. It is a hard to beleive that my baby girl is going to be 16 in just a few short days. God is going to do wonderful things in your life. Just let him lead the way kido!!!! I love you very much.
When I think of Hannah it is amazing to see how far she has come the last three years. She is so much fun. I was going through some of her adoption papers yesterday and it brings me to tears thinking about the first 14 months of her life. I didn't relize how much paperwork they had given us in China regarding Hannah's first months of her life. I always thought that she was born in Maoming, but she was actually born in a small town in the farm country of Jintang. When I really thought about this I was in tears. Where was our baby born in a village, rice field, etc.... your mind just starts racing with questions. Don't get me wrong I had those questions when we got our referral, but it really hit be hard yesterday when I was reading all the paper work again. I think it is harder now, because I know our child. I know the hurt cry, play cry, the happy laughter etc..... It just breaks my heart knowing that her biologcial mother/father are missing all of this. Hannah is such a special, wonderful, cute, beautiful,fun child. She is so prefect. God is going to do amazing things in her life. Hannah I just want to let you know that mama & daddy love you so much. You are such a JOY in our lives!!!! God has blessed us/you so much!!!!!
God has given us three wonderful children!!!!